Christ, I've Done it Again

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I wrote this song at the beginning of my sophomore year in college. I remember feeling like I'd gone up a level after I had written it, which is ironic, because the song is essentially about falling short. The refrain, "Christ, I've done it again," is a reaction to my trying to explain myself just when I catch myself, "I mean..."

The song is a collage of truths. For example, over the summer, I was up in that attic in my parents house, when I fell through the floor. My friend Dan Patterson saw my foot pop down in my bedroom. That seemed to be a metaphor for how I felt in new social settings. If I could sit and think about it, I could express myself quite well, but I felt like my foot was in my mouth more often than not in social settings.

The song takes aim at people who live in a world of concrete understandings. That must be nice. When I wrote, "Don't feed me that shit that they do it all the time." I had to drop the "that" for rhythmic reasons, and hope that someone might still get the meaning, because the following line I'm the one saying, "They do it all the time."  I have a lot of songs that criticize people, but only because I'm one of them. 

I first recorded this for Meet the Navigators. Dan Reed said he would play it on WFPK, but it had a bad word. We did an unconvincing radio edit. I don't think he played it, though. 

I was bit reluctant to re-record it, but Phelim and Andrew felt like they could do a better job, and I agree. It was part of the Meet the Navigators sessions. We then re-recorded it for the Cowboy sessions. I think we spent an hour on it. Our manager, Sean was insistent that we record it. Listening back, we did a good job.  I mean, we'd playing it for nearly two years, but it didn't make the cut for Glory, Glory, because it wasn't shiny and new enough for us (I think).  I usually had to be dragged to re-record songs back then. Now, I find that attitude ironic. But when you have hundreds of songs, there's always that feeling that I need to get them out there.